My Story/Your Story
Why Within Without Exists
There’s two main reason’s I started WithinWithout and they are both because of you.
The first was my own wake-up call
A few years ago now I was undergoing what it meant to be ‘awakened.’ On a trip to Sydney I got news a wonderful female colleague, who was taking long service leave after 10 years of servitude to a corporation, had died in suddenly in plane crash whilst holidaying in Cuba.
As always when someone dies, the sadness for a life cut short, the grief for those left behind, and the shock of our own mortality, the questioning of the unexplained and seemingly unfair echoed in the depths of my soul. I wondered why. I grieved for the lost opportunities. I grieved for her. I grieved for myself. I replayed the grief of former, closer deaths in my life.
I contemplated this life of ours and wondered why I felt so disconnected from the sea of busi-ness of George St. I contemplated this as I went to my office and rushed to ride the elevator to the synthesised reality on the 38th Floor, the man made light, the fake potplants, the egoic systems and hierarchies imposed by people disconnected from themselves trying to validate themselves by controlling others and situations around them. Wreaking insincerity and inauthenticity through their insecurities. I contemplated this as I tried to catch the elevator as the doors began to shut. And the people inside stared at me, through me & ignored me. They had their cubicles to get to you see. Their meetings. It was more important to get to that false reality in the sky 10 seconds earlier than it was to acknowledge & extend self-lessness and kindness to a fellow human being.
I contemplated, and I woke up. This was not what I wanted for my life, for our humanity. This fragmentation. This separateness. This spending 10 years in a cubicle, stuck in a system that perpetuates people’s beliefs that this is how it must be, only to realise LIFE as a punctuation mark in an otherwise boxed in limited story.
I got responsible, I realised Gaia and her children were crying. I realised we had to get back to community, to connectedness, to caring about others as much as we care about self. To stop this madness of individualism. To realise I am you and you am I.
I got responsible for my life. For my thoughts. For my belief system. I challenged my truth. I realised it was nothing but. And what I learnt was scary. And challenging. And amazing. And liberating.
I learnt that in order to fully know myself, I had to lose myself completely.
I learnt I truly am the creator of my world without, by mastering my word within. I learnt my purpose & that I know everything and nothing at the same time. I learnt that THIS MOMENT is an intoxicatingly joyous place to be. I found my way to personal truth, love and freedom; of what is real and what is not.
I learnt I had to do my bit to help others realise this for themselves, to give them access to the insights I was fortunate enough to get. To help guide them along the journey back to the SOURCE that they and we all are. And so I do. And it is a wonderful place to be
The second was what I’d learnt along the way
After spending years as a Lingerie Stylist, Events & Relationship Manager, and Good Friend to many many (beautiful, successful, smart, sexy, gifted, talented) women….it absolutely amazes how many I met who (secretly) feel like something is missing in their lives – they just can’t quite put their finger on it. But deep down beneath masks of confidence, career success and designer dresses they have a void that just can’t be filled. No matter how much over-shopping, over-working, over-partying or over-eating they do, that empty feeling can’t just be filled. They often feel disempowered, imperfect, unsure of themselves, and basically ‘less than!’
Well let me tell you right now “YOU ARE AMAZING!” Seriously! And I am committed to you getting that! That feeling is your unexpressed potentiality, your brilliant radiant light screaming at you to wake-up and shine. To follow your bigger picture purpose, to experience the soul-full, joy-filled life you were meant to be living.To access your true gifts; to reignite the sensual, volcanic powerhouse of goddess energy deep within you, become all you are capable of being and to share those gifts with the world.
Over the past ten years I have been exploring transformational studies of mind, body and spirit through Multidimensional Healing, Creative Therapies, Spiritual Dance, Transformative Results Life Coaching, NLP, Timeline Therapy, Authentic Relating, Subconscious Reprogramming, Transpersonal Consciousness, and various Energy Balancing modalities such as Reiki and Kinesiology. All which have taught me how to ‘get out of my own way'; lose the ‘stuff’ (technical term for all that disempowering self-talk, limiting beliefs, emotional states or behavioural patterns that hold us back), to celebrate my own authentic goddess essence and shine my light so that you may shine yours…
I absolutely love my life, who I am and what I do – and I work every day helping others to do the same.